Day 1 of Online School

I know everybody’s tired of hearing about COVID-19. It’s cancelled our lives, it’s clogging up our Twitter feeds, and it’s actually hurting a lot of people right now.

I started this blog for self-development. I thought it would be cool to be able to go back through my earliest posts and see how far I’ve come. In the current situation, I might say I’ve gone backwards, but that’s not really the point. The point is… Coronavirus is on everybody’s minds right now. In five years, it would be inaccurate to have only posted about it once.

I know it’s tiring. I get it. I’m tired too. But I’m trying my best to put different spins on the situation so I don’t sound like the hundreds of emails you’re getting hoping to find you in good health.

(By the way, I hope you’re reading this in good health and that you’re washing your hands regularly).

The unfortunate truth is that this is history. We’ve always been living through history, but now everyone’s intensely aware of it. My kids are probably going to read about the 2020 pandemic in their history books in 20 years and want to know my take. Man will I have a lot of material to share with them.

Today, school was cancelled. Like completely cancelled. Like… I’m never returning to a high school campus again cancelled. I’m sure in August when the next school year starts everyone will have forgotten what it was like to physically go to school. By then I’ll be in college.

Today was day one of online school. Today marked the first day of my deteriorating sanity as I realized I will have to do online school for another two months. TWO MONTHS.

Prom isn’t happening. And I know that should be the least of my worries – it’s just a school dance. But I desperately wanted to to have a good prom.

And I’m not even getting a graduation ceremony at the end of it all like normal because it’s been cancelled just in case.

I think what’s tripping me up most about the current situation is that two weeks ago, I had my last day of school. And I didn’t even know it.

Two weeks ago, I was super excited for Scotland and Ireland. Technically, I only spent one day of my last week of school on campus – Monday, March 9th. On Tuesday, March 10th, I had a band event. I was gone all day. And Wednesday, March 11th… well everyone else was still at school preparing for midterms. I was on an airplane to Europe, which, unbeknownst to me, was going to be a very, very short trip.

I’m not entirely sure which day is my last day of school. Monday? Tuesday? Does it even matter anymore? If I knew it was going to be my last day, I would have paid attention a little more.

And now, I have online classes. Most chaotic experience of my life. So many live zoom meetings. So many live zoom meetings during other live zoom meetings. I’m not even sure which live zoom meetings are required!

When I actually went to school, I’d get out early around 2:00. Now I’m doing school through lunch and way past my normal out time… because it’s all online and time is a construct.

Was this post supposed to be a rant? No. Is it? Probably.

At least in five years, future me will have written record (at least two) detailing the headspace I occupied during this historic pandemic. At this point in time, present me can’t go back to last year’s posts because they make me too sad. They’re all about preparing for school and being optimistic towards the future.

Do you know what I’d give to go back to school? I’ve never wanted to so badly before!

Anyways… this is all for a good reason. Whatever part of life was cancelled saved lives. Repeat that to yourself when you need it. All those cancelled weddings, small funerals, closed stores, lost jobs, isolated friends, and missed graduations saved lives.

Stay smart out there. Stay home. Wash your hands. Practice social distancing. And save some lives this week.

Thanks for reading.


2 thoughts on “Day 1 of Online School

  1. You’re more grown up (woke) than you realize. FYI, I got stood up for my senior prom and I never went through commencement since I had to start summer school in order to go to Baylor. Stuff happens, get used to it and wash your hands!

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